every body has thier own stupid anoying relative!

demm!
itu perkataan pertama yang terlintas pat kepala after mendengar ceritera my best friend about my another bedriden best friend neh.
all becouse of (from my opinion) salah paham sesama adik beradik. stupid people neh tak reti nak talk heart to heart ker. must we all judge things from khabar sebelah pihak, and must we be family based on the berapa banyak harta one have or berapa banyak tenaga one contribute.
haisshhhhh! demm anoying betolll!
dah lah mak bapak dah tak der, bertelagah lagik, so kalu jadik apa2 pandai2 arr bawak diri, so apa guna ada adik beradik kalau macam tuh. growing up together takkan tak tau lagik macam mana perangai masing2. must we pandang serong with each other.
for me if you got something to say, say it. don go and sok sek sok sek behind my back. memang akan further the confusion and the salah angap sesama sendirik kan. and again why kene ada hasad dengki sesama our own flesh and blood, rezeki masing2 tuhan dah tentukan, kalau ko senang means that is what god have desided for you so dont look down on others whos less fortunate. maybe itu ujian dia.
for my dear friend sabar ajerlah, if the blood is not thicker than water then lets buat air gula, letak gula banyak2, biar dia thick, biar dia likat. you dont need all of those bull, make another family from whom you can count on, tak semestinya from your own flesh and blood.

been there, done that. masa senang semua hurung cam semut, masa susah lalu depan umah pun depa sanggup tutup tinggkap. never mind, our time will come.!

again, demmm stupid anoying human being who thot they are better then others!

minggu yang emo

wahhhh... minggu neh me memang emo giler, nak kata datang bulan belum lagi, nak kata pregnant pun tak jugak walaupun me wish jugak, ekekekekke. maybe me punya hormon tingtong kot

dah lah last week me off kerja 1 minggu jaga mya kene demam panas, then kene demam champak, (masa mula2 pi klinik doc said its an elergik! hampess arr doc neh, pi blaja tinggi2 pun tak kenal champak ker bukan, at last my sis inlaw yang ada 7/8 anak yang konfirmkan itu demam champak! I want my refund!!! demm punya doc!!!)

masuk kerja plak, serba serbi hampess, ngan kerenah orangnyer, ngan kerenah mesen2 yang bengongnyer, semuanyer menduga kesabaran. rasa cacam nak hempuk2 jerk benda alah tu semua pat jalan raya!

sabaq hati sabaq!

demmmm!!!!

will you stab my back?

aiyohhh, bunyi tajuk cam budak sekolah menengah jerk but really this happened a few months sebelum bulan puasa lagi.

one day a few hours sebelum lunch kawan se opeh asked me if I can joint her for lunch sebab ada hal nak cakap me said OK, no prob. so pukul 1 on he dot me and her kuar, masuk jerk keter, baru 2/3 langkah dah bersembur kuar air mata, tanya soklan2 cepu cemas kat me, am i that bad? am i that stupid and so on.

pelik plak me, and asked her why? she explain to me how she excidently come across a chat conversation between a junior clerk who is supposedly her best friend and a male executive who is quite close to her. that chat conversation ada mentioned her name so without bad intention she read it. honestly me pun akan baca kalau me nampak nama me blinking in someone chat conversation.

guess what, both guys simply exchanging comments about her, a bad comments, saying how she is STUPID, that she says what she wants and if she feels like shes done something wrong she simply apologies as if it doesn't mean anything. and all her supposedly secrets she told the junior clerk is now out in the open when the junior clerk spill it out to the male executive.

they also commented on how she is all the same with her "sister" (that would be me by the way) and also commented on our dosa pahala. OMG! I scream inside! wth! wtf! who are they to say all those nasty things about others. who are they to judge others. as far as i am concern, even if i am in a bad mood, anger, i NEVER thought them as STUPID, i never judge them and i never once say awful things about them.

Yes i have a very bad temper but as anger as i can be the most harsh things that i would say to a friend is hampess! and tingtong! I never called a friend STUPID apatah lagi nak judge pasal depa punya dosa pahala. and to spill all the secrets entrusted to you is a taboo thing for me, apatah lagi kalau ianya melibatkan maruah.

yang bestnyer both stupid (nie baru me said and mean it) florida person tu (yess shikin, both are also from that STUPID place) bila buat kerja selalu tak pernah perfect! selalu ada salah, selalu ada tertinggal, selalu terlupa, selalu ter bengkalai dan yang selalu tolong cover depa neh ialah minah yang kene kutuk tadi. hadehhh!!! sebelum kata org bodoh tuh cermin diri dulu babe, nak wat surat dalam bahasa ibunda sendiri pun ko ketaq2, apa barang.

pasal dosa pahala org tak yah lah nak sibuk, diri sendirik tu betulkan dulu, kalu tegur ngan cara baik boleh lah org respect, kalu tak tau citer, buat andaian sendirik jerk, baik tak yah. setakat pakai tudung pakai baju kurung 24 jam tapi kasik orang "pegang"2 buat haper, so baik shup the hell up!

bila dah kantoi mulalah cam cacing kepanasan. buat muka seposen, konon tak bersalah, ntah haper2 citer jaja pat orang sana sini, mengadu, dasar pengecut. hak jantan tu plak dah blah dari company baru la nak post kat fb konon nak maki depan2 la, awat masa tak blah itu hari tak nak bersemuka, ingat aku takut ka, tak kene suntut ngan aku pun dah cukup bagus. La nie tinggal hak pompuan mangkuk tuh jerk tak blah2. Tebal plak kulit muka dia stay pat situ lagik mengadap minah yang dia kutuk tuh. dah kutuk2 orang lagi leh nak mintak tolon ajar buat kerja.

Tak sedar masa susah sapa yang dok tolon dia, makan minum, tido, berak pat umah minah yang dia kutuk tuh free2 jerk! Dah lah lansung tak kenang budi org tuh, lagi leh gi jaja citer org tu plak. Macamlah masa dia study pat uni pat malaysia barat tuh dia baik sangat! Bukan org tak tau apa dia pernah buat ngan tak pernah buat pat sana.

me memang cukup anti ngan kawan2 2/3 talam mukanya. cukup elergik, bagi me kalu berkawan, malah kalau kawin pun harus terima kawan atau pasangan seadanya. baik buruknya, maruahnya harus kita jaga, bayangkan kalau maruah kita org buat macam tuh, apa kita rasa. lagi plak kalau ianya melibatkan maruah keluarga.

so right now me and kawan opeh me yang kene kutuk tuh buat bodoh jerk, ko buat kerja ko, aku buat kerja aku, ko tak reti buat kerja ko, itu masalah ko, ko ada mulutkan ko tanyalah orang yang lebih pandai. kerja ko, ko settle sendirik, no more helping hand from us, that is the price you have to pay for your superb back stabbing showmanship!

hah, pas neh saper2 nak tikam belakang kalu berani buat arr, suntuk kepala lutut korang sampai tak leh jalan seumur hidup! pantang sunguh tau!

demm irritating business!

i've said it before and i'll say it again, its demm irritating business really, going back to work! not because of the work itself but rather the people i am dealing with, and the people here is not referring to the client but rather a few co workers! demmm! what a drag! stop being such a draggy will you, i am trying to make a living! demmm!!

Old scar!

Start at around 3am my c-section scar start to hurt right after I feed Mya, maybe salah makan yesterday. This remind me of Arwah Iman, may he rest in peace. Really miss him a lot. In fact setiap kali bedungkan Mya mesti teringatkan Arwah. Mesti dia tengah nakal kacau kacau Mya if he is still here. Well, he is waiting for me and his daddy kat sana, we will meet again my son when the time comes.

The scar still hurts! Ayark!